The binding bittersweet love.(poem)

The bittersweet binding love.

The Feeling of the cold class on my skin woke me up,
Back to the reality,
back to my own living hell.
The sleep, please, get me back to sleep.
Sing me a lullaby, just make me fall asleep

The sleep. Is it healthy?
Is it healthy to run back to the dreams,
the dreams of you.
Special now where I can't get you.
Let me sleep,
let me not see the glass cage I'm in.

But now where I'm awaken.
I can see the world passing by.
But me? I'm stuck here in my past.
I see myself through the glass
wandering around like a zombie.
Why don't I wake up from this nightmare!!

Let me out! But the binding love keeps me here.
The pain and the miss of you are so fucking cold.
The fists hit the glass, but nothing comes out of it,
only rage and misery.
Let me out! I screamed.
Don't let me be alone with my beast.

I felt its warm breath on my chicks,
but i wouldn't look,
I will not look through the reflecting eyes.
It was there, the amber eye colored beast.
The dragon was awaken.

"Come on, let me free, you know what you want,
can't you feel the anger? The darkness inside you?"
Said the dragon with its seducing voice,
how irresistible wasn't it.
Why not let my misery out!
Why not hurt the one I love,
just as much he had hurt me
and still hurts me.
Wouldn't it be fair?

"Look at yourself, see what you have become.
Ain't you a little poor girl how pathetic,
what about taking revenge?
What about letting me out?
You know, it isn't that hard."
Its words, they were cruel
but on the other hand they helped my burning pain.

The words were like echoes.
"why not,, why not"
Ït repeated itself over and over.
Please free me from these words!!
The dragon just laughed.
"You know, that I have all my lifetime to wait on you,
but can you wait with this pain and misery alone?"

Falling, it was like falling.
My mind was on the loose,
I couldn't resist it.
I let the beast consume me,
becoming me.
No it had always been me..

No way back.
I can't stop the beast.
No way back.
Let the fire destroy everything.
No way back
Please god just let me out of this cage.
No way back.
It was too late.