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Lets see where this leads - Nicholas
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Lets see where this leads - Nicholas
Enviroment: We already know this.
Time: Present, Winter, time being around morning on its way to midday.
Weather: Sunny with small clouds on the sky, slight wind coming from west.
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His intention in this district was not yet clear, yet he was walking with such determination. Stopping at a certain door, he knocked firmly with his knuckles. He looked around, awaiting the door to open. When it opened, he looked up at the doctor before a short smirk spread across his face:” Gooday Doctor Dunham. Do you mind?” he asked tilting his head quickly, signalling for permission to walk inside.
Inside he looked around, not in an invasive manner, but merely an attempt to figure out what type of person this doctor was. He didn’t want to sit down, so he was standing in the middle of the room, yet not in a way that would have him stand in the way of the doctor. He lifted his hand up to his mouth to politely cough in order to clear his throat:” I know it seems weird. I don’t exactly mend in with the rest. But after I heard about you, I thought that you might be the guy for what I’m about to offer.” he said, putting his hands in the pocket of his coat, expressing how relaxed he felt.
“If you’re wondering why I came here, I thought I’d let you know. I have heard of you through minor rumours. From appreciation of your work to mere trifles to serious accusations. And somehow I feel, as different we might be on the outside, we have one thing in common.” he said, turning his look around the room before he looked the doctor in the eyes:” We both seem to have quite the reputation. Reputations that makes the members of society judge us before even meeting us,” he said with such contempt in his voice. He frowned shortly at the thought before shaking his head. He knew that what he had done couldn’t exactly compete with what he had heard of the doctor, but something in him wanted to believe that the rumours were only rumours.
Then he shook his head and waved his hand at himself as some sort of angry reminder to himself:” I'm sorry, where are my manners? I forgot to introduce myself. The name is Jonathan Crane.” he introduced, lifting out his hand as a courteous action. It was up to the doctor if he wanted to shake his hand or not, either way Jonathan didn’t mind.
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As he dries his hand he hears a knock on his door. There was no one he expected, either an emergency or someone that was not a patient. He unfolds his sleeves as he approaches the door, when he opens it he sees him. Fancy dressed, clearly not from this district, doubtful it was someone looking for healing. As he asks to come in Nicholas checks him over with his eyes, trying to determine why he's here, after a brief moment steps aside. "By all means.." After the man goes inside he slowly closes the door and turns around to look at him. The last time someone looking like him had an offer for him it meant becoming a personal doctor, which he had no intention of becoming. "I'm not for sale, sorry." He knew he was being rude but he was sick of rich snobs thinking they could buy anything they wanted, thinking they were entitled anything. But the guy continued to talk. Rumors? If there was anything being said about him it couldn't have been good, but he always thought he went under the radar, then again, being a doctor in this district did bring a lot of attention his way. Not really caring what had been said about him he said "All probably true" looking him in the eyes as he said the next thing. He just smiles sarcastically to what he has to say. looking slightly to the side. "I don't know where you're from.. but here, everyone's a nobody.. it doesn't matter what you do here, being judged by outsiders has no effect on the people here.." He looks back into his eyes. "And you might know me or my reputation.. but i don't know you, Mr?" As he introduces himself and stretches out his hand, Nicholas stands still, looking down at his hand for a while, making him wait. Then reaches out and shakes his hand.
"Alright Mr. Crane... I still don't know you.." After looking at him for a short while figuring him out, he walks past him heading for the other room. "Want something to drink Mr Crane? We have water oooorr... water" He said with an amused voice. He knew he was proving his point, he was judging him before he knew him, he thought about giving the guy a break, after all he could be a good man. It was just hard because he had seen to many people having no regard for life of any kind, putting their selfish desires first. And among the guilty were the rich and important people high up on that list.
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“I don’t believe that I was going to buy you to begin with. After all you are a doctor and not a prostitute.” He said, smirking a little bit over the remark. He enjoyed a little bit of teasing, after all, what fun would you have in life if everything where to be serious. He exhaled and shook his head slightly:” I am however interested in buying your medical expertise for a temporary problem. As those who can afford it does as well.” he then said, lifting his eyebrow slightly.
Even though Nicholas was being very sarcastic and somewhat rude, it didn’t bother Jonathan. He could understand that someone who’d live in this district probably wouldn’t have had the best experiences with the upper class. He shook his head and gave off a patient half-smile as he let the doctor speak out. “Well explains why you’re here.” he said with a little nudge to the tone, as he winked at him with a smile. They could probably play this little game of remark-pingpong for a while. But Jonathan didn’t want to keep going.
When he made the remark of still not knowing him, Jonathan rolled his eyes with a smile on his face:” Unless you enjoy keeping track on rich families, I suppose not. But as every other person you meet, you will know me to some extent.” He answered, watching Nicholas move across the room. When he was offered water, he simply shook his head:” I don’t uh…. Drink.. or eat food for that sake. But thanks for the offer.” he politely declined. He was still standing in the middle of the room, not really planning to move. It wasn’t that he didn’t but he was going to wait politely for Nicholas to be ready to hear him out.
Then he spoke out when Nicholas was ready:” Soo. This isn’t really about me. I’m not hurt. But someone I know is. Little girl.” he said, the smile from before fading and the eyes getting a concerned look. He looked away as he kept speaking:” A friend of mine has a daughter. She is very ill. And every doctor that has inspected her, cannot find the cause of the problem.” he said, then to look at Nicholas:” ....now I don’t know if she can even be cured… But if you’d just look at her, I’ll pay whatever price you’ve got.” he said with a slight pleading voice. He wasn’t really the begging type, so it wasn’t even that noticeable. But he was very concerned for the girl.
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As they head outside he locks the door behind him and drops the keys in a pocket inside his jacket. He turns to Crane and says "Lead the way" With an impatient voice, wanting to get to the girl as quickly as possible. Not knowing what was wrong with her there was no telling if it was fatal or how long she had. He was hoping to get some information on the road though. "So when did she first become ill, tell me everything you know, doesn't matter how insignificant you think it might be." He looks at him with a serious face as the made their way to the destination. Helping children always came as a priority for him, not only because they were natural weaker and needed the extra help, but also because of his love for them, A dying child was the worst he could experience, and he had, many times, but it never made it any easier.
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“It started when she was struggling with her sight and hearing. At first it wasn’t bothering her, except that she asked a lot of questions. But it developed pretty fast and before we knew it, she was bedridden.” he explained with a worried voice. It was quite the walk to get from one district to another, even longer when they had to walk through the 2nd district. “One doctor, I'll never forget him. He came in, barely glanced at her before telling my friend that she was going to die. And then he just left.” he said in a disgusted tone. To him it was absurd that someone would even say such a thing to a parent and in the tone alone was cynical and harsh.
“I must warn you though. You cannot touch her skin. Not directly, skin to skin contact. I haven’t tried, so I don’t know what would happen. But I have seen the most horrid expressions on doctors that did. And they just left afterwards without saying a word.” He explained further. These were crucial, seeing that Jonathan wasn’t interested in having another doctor to flee because she could make them. He wasn’t sure if it was even in her control or just a weird coincidence.
Arriving at a fairly big house in Terrorville, he just walked in. He took off his coat and folded it as he walked down the long hall, expecting Nicholas to follow. Going up the stairs and down a short hall to the left, entering a [For at se dette link skal du være tilmeldt og logget ind.] that was probably bigger than what Nicholas was used to. A man was sitting by a bed, with his hands folded and his forehead pushed against his thumbs as he mumbled small prayers. Jonathan wasn’t much of a religious man, but seeing his friend like that was horrible. He threw his jacket over a chair before going to the bed, looking at the little girl lying in the middle.
“Lucia. I hope you can hear me. We have found a new doctor, doctor Nicholas Dunham, and this one will help you get better. Just hang in there” he said to her, trying to sound very optimistic. The girl, Lucia seemed to be sleeping, however it was too calm to be a sleep. It was more like a coma and judging by her skeleton-like features, she had not moved for quite a while. She looked at peace however, her bright white long straight hair spread over the dark fabric of the pillow. His friend looked up at Nicholas before shaking his head:” Please save my daughter.. My… My wife died giving birth to her.. I cant lose her too.” he pleaded with teary eyes. Suddenly little Lucia started shaking, having an epileptic seizure. Jonathan looked surprised at her, then at Nicholas. “If you need help with anything, tell me what to do.” he said, ready to do whatever to aid.
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As they approached the destination it had become evening, the building they were going in was huge compared to was he was used to, but then again so was the entire district, he had only been in it a couple of times, and still he didn't know his way around. As they walked inside he just followed Mr. Crane, letting him lead the way to wherever the child was. When he followed him through the halls he couldn't help but look around "Fancy place this" Saying it out loud, his thoughts was all occupied with trying to figure out what could be wrong with the girl, so other thoughts just kind of came out of his mouth. As they entered the room he noticed the size of it but making little note of it as he saw a child like figure in the bed and a man that seemed like he was praying next to it. They approached the bed and he takes out a morphine syringe and pockets it before he dropped his bag by the foot of the bed, taking his coat off and laying it on the bag. It would be better if he had it close by in case something happened.
Just as he heard Mr. Crane say her name it put him off a bit, "Lucia.." it was so alike Lucile. And as he got up and slowly made his way to her side of the bed he just stopped and stared at her. Not only was the name alike, her figure, her beautiful hair... It was like him and Lucile had a child, she had such an uncanny resemblance to her and it was not a good thing, it was like he was treating a young Lucile.. His heart felt as if it stated bleeding, he had trouble breathing. Lucia needed him, he had to get this under control, this was not Lucile, Lucile was fine, focus on the task at hand, were things he told himself while getting control of his breathing. As he analyzed her he saw how malnourished she was and by the looks of the bed around her she had been laying there for quite a while. It surprised him that none of the other doctors that were here had told them to keep her healthy, feed her, move her around to avoid sores, clean her. It seemed like they had done none of that, which had to have an impact on her. He listened to the father tell his story, one he had heard many times before, but it didn't make it any less hard to hear, another burden of being a doctor, was this another child he would take from a family?
But before he could finish that thought Lucia started to have an epileptic seizure, he hears Mr. Crane wanting to help but there is nothing they can do but wait, they cant interrupt her, it would only endanger her more. "No, just stay with her and try to calm her down." he gets on the bed and tilts her to the side using the sheets to avoid contact with her. He makes sure the saliva can run out her mouth instead of blocking her airway. Nothing more can be done, just keep her company and let her ride it out. If he had to guess the cause, it would be the fact that she was malnourished, he didn't blame the family still, they had no idea what would happen. It was the doctors fault for not informing them of what could happen.
When the seizures finally died down and she had calmed down she didn't breathe, he leans over her mouth listening and feeling if there is anything, but there was nothing. He had to help her breathe, so he rolled her on her back tilting her head back and started compressing her chest, there was no way out of it now, he had to touch her, let whatever bad stuff happen to him, he had no other choice. He closed her nose breathing in her mouth, but as soon as he let go to do more compression he got dizzy for a second, the environment changed around him, he looked around, Mr. Crane and the father was gone.
He was home, in his lab standing next to his operating table, as he looks back to the girl she was not the one laying there anymore, it was Lucile... his hands were covered in blood, she had been brutalized, wounds everywhere, deep ones, blood pouring from all of them, he started shaking as he started to panic, his heart was dying." Please no.." Fear had taken over him, he tried blocking the wounds, healing her, nothing worked, there was no tools for him to use. Tears were running down his face as he was facing this. "No no no no no...." he says in a shattering voice. There was no way this was happening. He looked her in the eyes which was full of fear, she was so scared, even crying, she was trying to speak to him but all he heard was gurgling as the blood kept pouring out of her mouth. He moved his hands around her body, trying to somehow make her better "Please... don't do this to me again... I... I can't..." He saw her slowly bleed out in fear, in pain, trying to tell him something he couldn't hear. It was agonizing, the tears were running uncontrollably as his eyes were flickering all across her body, he was shaking badly, for him it seemed to last around half an hour but in reality it was only a few seconds.
As the vision fades his state didn't change, he looks at Lucia but all he sees it Lucile. "I.. I'm sorry.. she.. shes gone..." He says with a shaky voice, as he lifts his up his hands they are covered in blood, in his mind, not in reality. He gets up and starts running for the exit, he couldn't stay here, his head was pounding, his heart twisting. Jonathan tried to stop him, out of concern or wanting answers, either way Nicholas pushed him out of the way, no one was stopping him, he had to go home, he had to see Lucile.
He leaves behind his bag and coat, there is nothing on his mind other than the fact that he murdered Lucile, he let her die on his table without doing anything about it. It's night out, and the adding his headache he didn't remember the way back home, not completely, so he ran back the best he could, the pain was unbearable, he felt as if the heart was going to leave his body. There was almost no one outside, and the little people there were all reminded him of Lucile, a fragile girl bleeding from everywhere, judging him as he ran past them, pushing some of them out of the way as he crashed into them. After a while of running he was exhausted, he stopped by a bridge that had an underpass with a small river of some sort running under it. He needed morphine, it was the only thing that could release him of the pain he was in.
He couldn't close his eyes because then he would only relive what he did to her, he couldn't have them open either because he would see her everywhere.. Then he recalled pocketing a syringe earlier, and after checking a bunch of pockets he finds it. He rolls up a sleeve as he leans on the bridge fence. He stares at the syringe, it was his only salvation, but he had promised Lucile he would stop.. His tears had not stopped coming since it started, this decision was not helping. It had only been a couple of days since he stopped, so it had not become too troublesome yet, his arm was itching at times and he had restless nights but the worst was yet to come, if he used this here and now it would reset the entire thing. Could he really break her promise to relieve his pain? "FUCK!" screaming as he threw the syringe off the bridge. Mumbling to him self "I can't..." He starts walking away still shaking from everything.
Just as he steps off the bridge onto the road it was like someone hit him over the head, the scene became vivid again, sparing no detail. "Not again.." he pleaded as he presses his hands against his face. He needed it, there was no other way. He runs down a staircase close to the bridge, leading to the underpass, it was dark, the streetlights were barely showing the ground he was standing on, so he got on his knees and looked around until he found the syringe again, still intact. He move back against the wall, readying the syringe on his arm, trying to steady his hand as best he could. "Please.. forgive me Lucile..." almost sobbing the words out. As the needle pierces his vein, he feels shame and more guilt fill his body. He throws the syringe away as his nerves calms for a second, listening to the river flowing by him helped, but it all changed. The morphine had numbed his body and mind, but the emotions were too strong, the scene was still implanted in his head, the only thing the morphine achieved was to intensify the pain. The shakes started again, he started to get paranoid, and when he looked at his palms they were filled with Lucile's blood. He started rubbing them on his pants but it had no use, so he moved them to the rocky ground, scrubbing them back and forth so much that he ripped his skin, opening several wounds on his palms, making the blood he saw very real. But in his eyes there was no change, nothing could remove the sins he had done to Lucile.
As the morphine took more effect it had only made it worse. He needed more morphine, enough to knock him out completely, which meant he had to get back home. Barely being able to stand he wobbled his way up the stairs, clinging to the wall as he moved. After reaching the top he moved down the streets, leaning on what he could, leaping from wall to wall, balancing small open stretches. The throbbing headache was not getting any better and his heart had given up on him, it felt completely numb. The vision had become a memory and he couldn't tell if it was real or not. If he really had killed her.. then there was no reason for him to be here.. he could just take a larger dose of morphine and end it.. After all, he did deserve it. He was not far from his home but before reaching it the pain had become to much and he blacked out, laying in a random alleyway face down on the concrete, his sleeve rolled up, both hands bleeding and a bleeding head injury from the fall. It was for the best, if he had reached his home there would probably have been an overdose...
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He was clever, seeing what the vision had done to Nicholas, as he left them, Jonathan turned to two of his housemaids and said:" Follow him and keep a track on him. Do NOT leave him out sight. Protect him if you have to." he ordered before he turned his attention to Lucia. He refused to let her die. He didnt exactly have a medical degree but he knew about vampirism and how it spread through the blood. If she wasnt completely dead, it would at least be worth the try. He looked around before picking up Nicholas' bag:" What the hell... am I trying to do.." he mumbled as he opened the little girls dress revealing her little chest. He took out a knife and shook his head as he pressed the knife against her skin, cutting an uneven line. He was shaking but determined that it would work. Then he turned his attention to the housemaid that had been taking care of Lucia:" You have small hands. Stick your hand in and keep her heart beating." he comanded as he turned around while thinking.
He wasnt a doctor! How would he know what to do? Then he remembered, from the studies that he didnt care about, a medical book about blood tranfusions. He ran to his study, ripping out the dusty book before opening it. All meanwhile he hoped that Nicholas wasnt too affected by the vision.
Tools? He would need those as well? He exhaled loudly to express his annoyance. But he could probably make up some stuff. He found some long thin metal tubes, the needles from syringes could be found in the bag. He came back to the room, attempting to make the tool for the tranfusion. Meanwhile his maid, despite her dislike of the idea, had pressed her hand through the hole and massaged the small heart carefully. Jonathan could see that she was fighting the horrible visions. That wasnt his biggest concern however. He opened her mouth, smiling when he could see the sharp teeth:" Keep massaging her heart. This might hurt." he said before rolling up her sleeve. He shook his head as he attempted to insert the needle, only barely lucky to hit the vein. He didnt dare to try and find Lucia's vein, so instead he jabbed the needle through her chest. His friend got up furiously after realizing what was happening:" You're mutilating he..." "Shut up and help her breathe. If this works, you'll be happy I did" he stopped him before turning around. His sleeves were bloody but it didnt matter right now.
He left the house, running towards Nicholas' house. Halfway there, he met one of the maids that had followed him:" Mr Crane, this way. The doctor has passed out." she said before Jonathan followed her. On the way, she explained everything they were able to observe, however they didnt dare to follow him under the bridge in case he'd see then. When they finally got there, Jonathan sat down on his knee next to Nicholas, putting the back of his hand close to his nose to feel his breath. He sighed relieved when he felt his breath and then he grabbed him by the arm, lifting him up on his feet:" I cant imagine what horror you must've seen" he said out loud as a thought. He looked around, realizing they were close to Nicholas' house, before he walked in that direction. The housemaids followed, opening the door for Jonathan before they were excused. Jonathan laid him on the sofa, shaking his head as he saw the marks and the blood. He grabbed a towel from the table before he looked for water. When he found it, he wet the towel, coming back to check on him. He kneeled down, cleaning Nicholas' hands before wrapping them in what seemed like sanitary pieces of cloth.
Then he said down on a chair next to the sofa, crossing his arms as he waited for him to wake up. "I guess this kind of thing is what humans are really good at." he said to himself before he leaned back and looked up at the ceiling.
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After being out for a short time he woke up abruptly "NO!" he exclaimed as he jumped up on his feet, not noticing his hands nor thinking how he got home. He didn't notice Mr. Crane as he didn't turn around. The morphine from earlier still had an effect on him so he was shuffling across the room just ripping open shelves and cabinets looking for morphine or any sedative that would work. But he found none, so he had to go to the lab. If Mr. Crane was trying to talk to him he didn't hear it, in his mind he was alone in his home. Making his way to the other room he crashed in the door frame, clinging to the walls trying to not fall down, but as he went down the stairs he trips on the last set of stairs, looking up at the operation table. There was blood running down the side of it, as he crawled towards it he noticed a lot of feet in the room, he raised his head and saw them, he recognized every single one of them, who they were, how they died. They were all around him, judging him for what he had let happen to them. He was shaking again, he grabs the edge of the table and lifts himself up to it, seeing Lucile there, the tears started rolling down his face again.
But there was a difference now, there was no blood coming from her mouth this time, he could hear what she was trying to say all this time. "Why did you do this to me Nicholas?.. " With such sadness in her voice, scared for her life as she could barely say the words from the pain she was in. He lost the ability to stand, everything was breaking down for him."I'm so sorry Lucile... I'm so sorry i let all of this happen to you..." Sobbing as he said it, leaning on the table with his elbows, holding his head up as he was taking this in. The people around him started talking to him "You know what you have to do" then made an opening in the crowd showing the cabinet with his morphine. He looks at it for a brief moment before looking down at Lucile again, she smiles at him as she says "You know its the right thing to do, my love..." He looks at the cabinet, leaning on the table as he moved towards it, crawling when there was nothing to lean on. He dragged himself up to it, opening it up and taking two syringes out containing large doses of morphine, then sliding his back down the wall, staring at a syringe. It would soon be over, he knew it would kill him but he didn't care, for wherever he ended up at least he could see Lucile again, that's the only thing he cared about. The world would be a better place now that he couldn't kill anyone else..
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As he was going to walk over to him, a small hand grabbed him from behind before a girl went ahead of him:” Don’t worry, I got him. Thanks for bringing him in. I owe you” She said as she walked over to him. Jonathan tilted his head slightly confused. But then he realized that Lucia had to be checked upon:” It was nothing really.. But. When he is ready, tell him that Jonathan Crane still has his tools.” he said and the girl just looked at him and nodded. He went upstairs, putting on his jacket before going out of the house and back to his own home.
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“Nicholas! What the hell were you thinking?!” she said in a loud angry tone. She cupped his face, lifting it up to face her, to then realize that not only had he planned on breaking his promise – He had already broken it. She pinched her eyes, shaking her head in a slight disappointment before she wrapped her arms around him into a tight hug:” What has happened to you.. Why did you have to break your promise?” she asked, not really sounding that sad, more a confused curiosity. She held him close to her, running her fingers up his hair, slowly and gently rubbing his scalp with the tip of her fingers.
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He looks at the operation table but she was gone, the people around them started disappearing. "Is it.. really you?.." with a shaky voice. He jumps on her, locks his arms around her back and pressed his face against her stomach, closing his eys. "I'm so sorry Lucile.... I messed up.. I messed up bad.." He was sobbing in her shirt. His grip on her held on tight, almost to the extent of his strength. He couldn't let go of her, after loosing her so many times he couldn't stand to let her go. His body was numb as he was just laying on her. Her presence was calming him down.
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“You’re acting crazy! It’s scaring me.” she said with a worried frown. But even if she did feel scared by him, there was no way that she'd move away or flee from him. Her heart wouldnt allow that. But she wasn’t really sure that it felt nice to be looked upon as some sort of ghost. She didn’t want to see him like this either, and moreover she wanted to know how this could have happened. She was also angry that he had broken his promise. She couldn’t express her anger right now, it didn’t seem like it was what he needed right now.
When he jumped on her, the surprise startled her, making her fall backwards. However, she stopped herself halfway from hitting the floor with her hand, clenching her teeth from the pain that spread in her hand from the impact. “Tell me what happened, now!” she demanded as she looked down at him, ever so worried and confused. She could feel his tight grip and it made her hurt:” Ugh… Nicholas.. You’re hurting me..” she whispered through clenched teeth. She sighed before she put one hand on his head, slowly caressing his hair with it, the other hand that was hurt from the impact with the floor, on his back. She slowly moved her thumb up and down his back, feeling his spine as it moved.
“Its okay. Calm down.. Tell me what happened… I don’t understand any of this..” she said in almost a pleading worry. Why was he behaving like this? It wasn’t really anything like him, at least she would never expect him to lose it like this. She leaned down towards him, attempting to lift him from her stomach to her arms, very carefully, making sure not to hurt him, even though as she tried using her hurt hand, pain pierced through it making her voice a hushed whimper. She then closed her eyes as she exhaled deeply. It was calming to be with him again, but it didn’t stop her worry that just bloomed as they sat there.
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"It started when i went to see a child about her illness.." hesitating slightly to continue as her now remembered what he let happen, she died because of his selfishness.. a tear rolled down his temple as he looked up at the ceiling. "He warned me not to touch her but there was no other way... she gave me some sort of vision" Swallowing as to get ready for what was next was not easy to think about. "In the vision.." He cleared his throat."You were there... bleeding out on the table.. and all i could do was watch... i killed you.." His started to crack as he spoke. "The more i thought about.. the more i believed it was true.." His heart was beating irregular again. "I was going to come see you... there was nothing left for me here.." He said with a peaceful voice, almost as if he still believed it was true. Lucile made everything better when she was with him, but this memory, it was not going away any time soon, and every time he thought about it, it messed with his heart, even if he knew it wasn't true. Just seeing Lucile in a state like that was something he couldn't handle. He looks her in the eyes as he feels the guilt rise. "I'm sorry i caused you pain Lucile.. I know i let you down.. there is no excuse for it, i should have been stronger..."
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She listened to him, not really saying anything. She removed his tear from his temple and looked at him with a slight concern in her eyes, yet an expressionless face. When he was done, she shook her head before she said:”You would never hurt me like that.. you know that,” with a determined voice as she looked down at him. She could see and feel how it was affecting him and she was annoyed that this wasn’t stopped before, clearly it had been taken too far.
“Whoever it was, he should’ve stopped you, not me. I don’t know him but if he warned you and didn’t even try to stop you from touching her.” she grumbled angry, lifting her gaze up to the open cabinet. Her hand that was being held by his hands, started fumbling with the bandages, before she realized that his hands where wrapped. She instantly lowered her eyes on his hands, pinching them at the bandages before she let go of his face and lifted his hands by the wrists with both her hands:” How did this happen?” she asked. The more she noticed and the more she thought about this, the angrier she started feeling.
Then he apologized to her. She shook her head as the only response. She didn’t want him to feel like he had to apologize to her. “Don’t apologize for it.” she mumbled as she was thinking. And then it hit her. She looked down at him before she smiled shortly:” Instead you have to face the consequences.” she said as she leaned down to kiss him on the mouth, placing her hand under his jaw, softly caressing his jawline with her thumb. She exhaled deeply as she got up. It was not easy to kiss him, not when she had spent time away from him. However, instead of giving into her cravings, she got back up before she pushed him up in a sitting position.
“How big was the dose?” she asked in a curious tone. She wasn’t going to give away what her intend was, so she just made it seem like she wanted to know how much the promise had been broken, by the amount that the syringe contained. If he answered, she would just straight away say:” Alright. Give me the exact same amount,” with a tone that clearly stated that this wasn’t up for argumentation. If he wanted to know why she’d say:” If you use, I’ll use. This way you’ll think twice before doing it again,” she said in a calm. She didn’t mind this at all, seeing that she trusted him.
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He was pushed up in a sitting position which didn't strike him as weird, only made him curious to what she was doing. What she asked made him cautious again, why did that matter? He was a bit scared of what she would do with the information but he had no intention of lying to her either. " Uh, a bit larger than normal dosage i use for most patients... why?" he said with a suspicious tone, looking at her with a slight tilted head. And the answer came right away, not giving him time to even guess what she wanted. His face turned expressionless for a second before he got almost angry, not at her but at the situation. "No... Why would i do that? A dosage that big for someone not used to it would be dangerous.." with a worried and shocked voice. She did answer him but he didn't like it. But it explained what she meant earlier by facing consequences. She was smart, he didn't care what happened to him, but to her, there was no way he would cause he pain, and she knew that. "No way.. i wont do that to you, i understand what you mean now.. just please don't.. i promise i wont touch it again" He said with a pleading voice. He moves both his arms on her shoulders and gently carcasses them as he talks to her with a tilted head, looking her in the eyes." I'm begging you.. i get your point.. no morphine" He was not happy about this, but he didn't blame her obviously, it was his own doings that brought them here. There was no way he would use now that this could happen. It wasn't dangerous for her to take it, it was just a pain depressant but it was the principle behind it. He didn't want her to be involved with that shit. He moves a hand up to her cheek and strokes it with his thumb. "Please... don't do this.." Looking sad with a half a smile at her.
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She looked at him, stretching out her arm that was next to him, before letting it go numb, revealing the area with her veins. With her other hand, she reached out for him, placed the hand on his with a little smile:” Its gonna be fine. ” she assured him, however she had no clue how her body would react to the content. She then leaned back while she waited for him to do it. She highly doubted that he’d let her do it herself, it would be way more dangerous for her.
After the injection carried out either by him or herself, she leaned back and exhaled loudly. At first she sort of slowly sled down the wall, having her upper back against it as she struggled to stay up. If he moved her, she’d follow like a stuffed toy, seemed very tired and limb. “It’s… fine… I’m okay..” she’d mumble even though she wasn’t quite sure. As the drug’s effect intensified, she struggled to stay awake. And then she went out like a light. She wasn’t responsive at all, barely moving.
A couple of minutes went by as she was blacked out, however breathing normally. All of a sudden she opened her eyes and slowly got up, looking around in confusion. She then looked at her hands, opening and closing them as she seemed to try and figure out how her own movements worked. If Nicholas tried to touch her or talk to her, she’d look at him in a surprised manner, to then look around again. She wasn’t saying anything, but she did seem like a scared animal stuck in the lair of a predator.
Then she calmed down. She ran her fingers through her hair, despite the drug, she seemed calm and in control of herself. She smiled shortly as she looked at Nicholas with an all too well known grin. It was Lucy:” Missed me?” she asked.
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As she was sleeping he rested his head on hers, cuddling her in his arms while she was under the opiate. After a while of staying like this, she suddenly got up without saying anything, looking around. He stood up with her "Lucile? are you alright? how do you feel?" with a worrisome voice. He sees her looking around confused, it could have been the effects of the morphine reacting with her wake up. She looked scared so he got closer and put a hand on her shoulder, trying not to be too forward in case she was paranoid. "You are safe Lucile, everything is fine" He smiles to her saying it. As she seemed to calm down he also calmed down, it looked like the journey was over, she was fine. But then he saw her grin, a grin he recognized immediately, it was Lucy. "Lucy?" he says confused, taking a step back consciously for something he might have to do. "I'm glad to see you're still with us, but you know i can't let you leave... i wont let you put Lucile through that again." This would surely fail but he had to try, do it while she was still getting used to the body, taking her by a surprise. And if not, well... he would have to improvise. There was no way he was letting her take over Lucile and make her do god knows what again. Not as long as he still drew breath. In a quick movement he grabbed a syringe from the cabinet and jumped at her, aiming for the neck. He knew it was morphine, which was probably not enough to knock her out, but there was no alternative.
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Lucy had gone back to being the normal Lucy. She actually didn’t remember what she had done to Lucile or that the book was found. Reminding her and possibly causing another break up wouldnt be the safest option. Right now she seemed stable but just confused. “But I see that you two has been going at it.” she concluded as she put her hand over her heart. She looked away from him and waddled towards the stairs. If he’d try to stop her, she’d try and shake his hand off, saying:” I just wanna fucking sit down. What the hell is up with you Nicholas?”
She then looked to the side as if someone was talking to her. However she just shook her head and smiled lightly:” She’s dreaming of you. Pleasant things.” She said as she waddled up the stairs. It was clear that the drug was affecting the body, making her movements slower and heavier. She complained loudly as she sat down in the sofa:” Why have we been given morphine. This fucking sucks.” she whined as she laid down on the sofa, too tired and lazy to really do anything.
She turned her gaze up to Nicholas, grabbing his hand as she pulled him down towards the sofa. If she succeeded to get him to sit, she’d crawl up on his thighs, one leg on each side of his hips, with a smirk on her face:” I wanna know about all the naughty things you two have been doing..” she teased, as she moved her face closer to his. Lucile's feelings and the body's reactions towards Nicholas was affecting her too much. She was expecting him to give in as well. After all, this body was Lucile’s. Would he be able to resist her?
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When she said Lucile was dreaming of him it made he smile as they walked up the stairs, wondering what she was dreaming about, making a few guesses in his head even though Lucy made it pretty obvious. He followed her to the sofa where she sat down, cautious about what to talk to her about seeing as he didn't know what she had forgotten, so he was mostly silent letting her lead the conversation. "Yeah sorry.. that's my fault, all i can say is that it won't repeat itself.." She acted really friendly, more so than he expected, even with her lost memories. He joined her on the sofa, expecting more questions. What he got however was a surprise, her on his lap with her legs around him, it was clear what she was after, unless she trying to trick him into saying something. But his body didn't have any suspicions of her, after all it was Lucile's body against his. When she leaned in close to him it made it all the harder to avoid how he felt. He just sat there, staring at her lips struggling not to go in on them. Without even knowing it he had placed his hands on her thighs, stroking them with his thumbs. His body already knew what to do seeing as this wasn't the first time, but he didn't intentionally control it, he was to busy holding his thoughts in place. This was Lucy, not Lucile, don't forget that.
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Sitting on the sofa on his lap was making her feel odd. Lucile might have gotten used to be intimate with Nicholas, but Lucy wasnt. That was also partly why she couldnt contain herself, and the fact that Lucile had been supressing her lust after being away from him, wasnt helping either.
She smiled at him when she noticed how his body was reacting to her:" I suppose you'll have to get used to this.. after all... being with a person who has two personalities... is bananas..." she whispered as she moved in for a kiss. Unlike Lucile, she wasnt very gentle. She was a woman that knew exactly what she wanted. Her kisses were soft but also very eager for more. She grabbed him by the collar, shortly before pressing her chest against his. Her breath was heavy as she looked him in the eyes. "Do you have any objections?" she asked as some sort of way for him to either reject or accept her. Not that she would accept a rejection, but he didnt have to know that.
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"You are aware that you'll end up hurting her, right?" she asked, stretching her arms out before placing her hands behind her head, looking up at the ceiling. She didnt say anything for a while until she then said:" The inevietable fate of humans. Unlike us, you dont live forever.. She'll see you wither away as you age..." her tone was expressionless and yet so filled with emotiob. She continued, sitting up with a serious look on her face:" Even your kids... if you have any, wont live forever. She'll be alone.. with a hole in her heart."
She knew that he already knew this, but she was curious to how much thought he had put into it. She leaned back down, staring at the ceiling:" She'll miss you." she concluded, starting to feel very tired and unaware of her surroundings. She yawned as she closed her eyes and rolled to the side, facing the back of the sofa:" I'm... gonna nap now." she said peacefully as she drifted off.
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But it didn't end there, she leaned up all serious and mentioned kids, which hit him hard. They haven't been together long but he was lying if he said he hadn't thought about it. He definitely wanted kids with her when the time was right, but Lucy was right. He didn't know if the children had a chance of become demons. And if they didn't she would see them die as well, along with him. It was heartbreaking. As she laid back and said she would miss him, he felt his heart twisting, his eyes became watery at the thought of what she was going to go through. She drifted off but he looked straight ahead in the same position thinking. Maybe he should end it with her, now, while it was still fresh. He would live a miserable life with no happiness but at least he would spare her the inevitable pain that was coming. This was shit to think about, but he would have to address it at some point either way. He looked down at Lucy while holding a hand on her thigh "Sleep tight Lucy" Smiling sadly at her before getting up.
He couldn't do it, if the roles were reversed he would never let her do that, so why would she. But it still wasn't fair, there had to be a way. Pacing around the room thinking he thought back trying to remember if he had researched anything that could even remotely help. There was no way was making her mortal, so it would have to make him immortal. The only ways of doing that was becoming non human. There was no way of becoming a demon, not that he knew of at least. A werewolf would make him into a beast, and either way it would only add more years, which was not good enough. Next up was vampire.. he would become immortal, but at the expense of feeding on other creatures.. And if he became one, he wouldn't be able to see beautiful sights as the meadow she showed him not long ago.. Not with the sun up anyway. But then again, it would also mean an immortal life with Lucile, that was worth any cost.. He moved to the bookshelf taking out one that had the most information on vampires, sitting down at the table reading up on how it was possible to become one. He had spent a fair amount of time studying vampires, but not really much into becoming one. After a while he heard one of them wake up, so he slams the book closed and puts it back into the shelf. Looking at her "Good morning sunshine" Could he tell Lucile about this yet? She would probably not like it. One thing he did know about it was that becoming one could be fatal, and if she knew that.. He was conflicted on what to do. If they asked what he was reading he would say "Just going through some medical stuff in case i need it in the future" with a slightly weird voice, smiling at them.
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Her immediate reaction was taking the fall with her hands. And that her hand being wounded and yet another harsh impact on the floor, caused an odd crack to be heard from her wrist. She rolled to her back and grabbed around it by instinct. She clenched her teeth in pain, thanking for the morphine in her mind. If Nicholas tried touching her wrist she’d move her hand away while saying:” It’s fine. I’m fine.” Through her clenched teeth. She knew that it was a lie and the pain was great, but her being clumsy should not be one of his worries, at least in her mind.
She sat up, not letting go of her wrist and yet refusing to let him see it. She tried smiling at him, but it ended up in her looking away:” I’m.. gonna go sleep,” she said while letting go of her hand so she could reach out for him to help her up. She wanted to walk on her own but her legs were being too wobbly and affected to be of any use:” I don’t want you to wait for me to wake up.. The guy… uh… Jonathan Crane, told me to tell you that he has your tools.” She said while they slowly walked towards the bedroom. She had a firm grip on his shirt and of course she felt that neediness fall over her.
This was not the time for giving into desires, she knew that. Nevertheless, she really wanted to. That’s why as soon as she laid down on the bed, she looked up at him, stroking his cheek as she said:” Don’t be gone for too long… I’ll miss you..” she said in a very soft voice – However she quickly realized that as soon as he’d leave, she would immediately start missing him. So she grabbed his hand and pulled him down towards her:” Before you go… let me fall asleep in your arms.. Please.” She said with almost a pleading voice. She smiled at him and stroke the back of his hand with her thumb.
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As he helped her into the bed she said something that made him really happy "Aww, I will be home as quickly as i can, and i will miss you more" He gave her a kiss on her lips before leaning of her and was about to walk out the door, but she stopped him, wanting him to stay a while longer. Which he had absolutely no problem with, he was even considering it before she stopped him. "Of course" He says with a big smile on his face. He jumps on the bed leaning over her, then rolling to the side with her on top of him. Wrapping his arms around her as she rested her head on his chest, cuddling her as she drifted off. "You really are the best thing that happened to my life, i hope you know that..." saying it softly, not knowing if she was asleep or not. He stayed a while after she fell asleep, he couldn't bring himself to get out of the bed, he could stay here with her for the rest of his life. But he had to see Mr. Crane, not because of his tools, but because he owed him that, especially because he got the child killed. He slowly slides out of the bed, being careful not to wake her. Before he goes he leans in on her, moving some hair out of her face and kisses her forehead, stroking her cheek with the back of his hand while smiling before leaning of the bed again. As he leaves the room he looks back at her. How could he be so lucky to have her, he had asked himself that many times, not getting over how lucky he was.
It was in the middle of night, not to far of morning, but he doubted they were asleep after what they went through. On the way out he was looking for his coat but remembered that it was also at Mr. Crane's house. So he went without one, locking the door behind him as he started walking. The cold would give him a clearer mind anyway, and he had a lot to think about. The child, what was he going to say, after all she died because of him, he wouldn't be surprised if he was thrown out once he got there. Another thing would be the future of his mortality, he hadn't really decided on what to do yet, and he didn't get much research done as she wasn't asleep long. He did know that he needed another vampire for it to work, so they would probably know what to do. But getting one that wouldn't just drain him could be hard. His mind was occupied with a lot to think about. When he finally arrived he stood by the door for a while, thinking of how to start. Then proceeds to knock on the door.
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